We’ve been married for 8 years but have only lived together for about 3 and a half of these. He moved out because of our arguments and I told him to go, but we have always ‘been together’ and did everything together and he has said for years that when we can stop arguing he will move back. Couples argue dont they? He used to stay at the weekends and we were always on the phone or texting each other and really very much in love still. But this last year he has changed and seems to start the arguments just so he does not have to come round and Im always just left alone waiting for him. I feel so alone as I have no friends and no close family. I started two college courses and work part-time but I always pretend nothing is wrong and act confident but inside Im a mess.

(I have 2 children from my first marriage, that broke up fine as we got married very young and are still friends even with his wife now.)

I have not seen my husband now since a week before Christmas and not spoken to him on the phone or texted since 5pm Christmas Eve, I miss him so much but so much time has gone passed I know he has moved on.

He would never go to counselling even though I begged him so many times, he would say he dose not have the money (even though I said I would be paying half) but he would say lets go for a meal out!

I feel lost without him even though I have always (3.5 years of the marriage) been on my own. I dont see any other way but to start divorce proceedings and try to be confident as I could not handle one day getting the divorce papers from him because then I know he does not want me anymore and my hopes of him calling would be gone.

What do I do? Im sorry for such a long waffle but I have no one to talk to.

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